The days stay the same...

...As we go on we remember all the times we've had together
And as our lives change come whatever we will still be friends forever...

Hung out with some old friends. Found out they have all been through anorexia and bulimia,
one still is. I'm jealous of the progress K looks sooo good, so skinny! I wish that was me.
I took bioxy today.. hopefully will flush out any food I'm forced to eat.
And I'm going to play my DDR. I haven't lost any weight so far this week.
My boyfriend is so skinny, I'm starting to think its all the pot he smokes..
When i blazed the other day i didn't eat at all. I don't get the munchies.

anyways stay strong guys.
...i love you.
--Sandy

A week later...

So a week goes by.. and i lost about 3 pounds.
Here was my week...

Sunday - i ate a lot, for lunch i had apple and cottage cheese with a few chips.
for dinner it was a chicken pot pies for dinner and crashed and burned with pizza at work.
but i did alot of exercise that day and burned about 800 cals.

Monday - i had so much im not gonna say it all, but I played DDR which burned 200 cals. And i walked to school, burning about 150 cals.

Tuesday - i was with friends after school, so i didn't eat much, but what i did eat was sooo sugery. i had a lemon cranberry scone (600 cals) a banana (150 cals) a chocolate cake thing (130 cals) 2 plain waffles (200) and a sandwich (190 cals) and some chicken bacon thing (270 cals) and i burned about 500 cals exercising

wednesday - 2 pieces of pizza with the boyfriend and a little bit of chicken (600 cals) cheerios and a ginerale (250 cals) Burned around 500 cals today

thursday - multi-grain cheerios (115 cals) California rolls (417 cals) latte from starbucks (350 cals) little bit of vanilla ice cream (220 cals) I Burned alot of calories tho! 600 cals on ddr and 100 walking.

Friday - Medium iced capp at timmies 360 cals (bf bought it without asking...) and a little crab (40 cals) i burned most my cals at work and walking around (500 cals)

Peace and love bebes <3
---Sandy

The worst of it.

Alright so the other day, i was planing not to eat anything.
It was going great, had 0 cals, then i came home...
at about 7pm and my mom told me to eat dinner,
so i did because i knew, if i didn't she would question it.

But of course, my body took over, i ate, and ate and ate.
I felt so bad after, like a freaking obese!
I purged, it was hard, it hurt, but i did.
I did it so much, with so much determination, to get that evil out of my body,
that i broke the blood vessels in my face.

Then I remembered a a few years ago , i would just binge and purge,
i didn't restrict. The same thing had happened, except at the same time i had puked blood.

I really don't know what to do, i hate the binge purge, just because of the purge.
Does anyone have any good idea on how to get out of the purging?
I know I'm hurting myself whenever i purge, but i just can't stop myself.

Today I did restrictions, i didn't eat more then 500 cals. and i burned about 1000 cals.
i walked to school, walked to work, ran stairs, and ran around at work for like 5hrs.
but i really don't feel that is enough.

----Sandy

The Fast and The Fruit Fast

Yesterday, I was able to go the whole day without any food.
0 Calories WOOT!
I also burned 400 calories on my DDR.

Today was not to hard, I did a fruit fast.
For breakfast I had a nectarine. For lunch an apple and a banana.
For dinner i had 3 small peaches and after work i had another banana.
Throughout the say i had water, orange juice and apple juice.
I believe i did great!

Wont be on for a few days,
stay strong loves.

--Sandyy <33

It continues

Yesterday...
hardly ate...
went to work...
NO PIZZA WOOT!!
came home...
binged...
couldn't purge :(

Today i shall not eat!
I shall exercise with my DDR.
I shall not eat at work.
I shall not eat after work.
I shall get some good sleep.

--- i hope no one notices...

The good :), And the bad :(

So Thursday i did a 0-70 fast!
i had 2 Fuze drinks, 15 cals each. and some apple juice, 35 cals.
all together i had 65 cals!

but then Friday (yesterday) i was going to do the same thing... BUT
i had pizza... a lot of pizza! i caved so bad!
I'm such a pig! So i had around i dunno 800 calories.

Today my plan is to get back on tract with my DDR and burn 1000 cals.
gosh i hope i can.

Weight update!!!
LW: 123
GW: 99
CW: 133
HW: 139

---no change from last time :( FML

Last day of my 2468 diet...

heyy guys...
so today is 800 cals.
i had an acai juice drink which is really good for losing weight...
http://www.acai.com/
anyways i have been playing DDR
so even tho i had those 600 cals yesterday and 800 cals today
i had minus cals because of exercising so much!!
weighing myself Saturday
love u all
--Sandyyy

day 2 - 400 cals

Woot!
so today i had a 120 cal muffin, 150 cal sandwich, and some celery -20 cals.
plus im playing ddr hottest party 2 on wii so far -100 cals.
so that means
120 + 150 -20 - 100 = 150 cals
YAY!
im doing good! teehee.
well im playing more ddr.
wont be able to get back on here tonight. but MAYBE tomorrow.
If not Wednesday for sure.
love you all!
- Sandy

Day 1 - 200 cals

Hey guys,
so i got up at 11am, well sort of.
im playing sick so my mom doesn't make me eat lunch.
Its 2:30 now, i officially got up at 1 and had a shower.
i haven't eaten anything at all so far. Yay!

I will soup before i go to work, which works out to be 200 cals.
and then ill say i ate at work, come home, and go to bed!
im so smart.

Ciao

--Sandy <33>

2468 what is it we really hate...

So yesterday i did the fast!
it was perfect :)

Tomorrow will be starting my 2468 diet.
So here is my schedule for the week:
Sunday - 200 cals
Monday - 400 cals
Tuesday - 600 cals
Wednesday - 800 cals
Thursday - 200 cals
Friday - 400 cals
Saturday - 600 cals
Sunday - 800 cals
And we will see how its gone by then.

Today im just going to raise my metabolism so that im good for sunday.
i think that's best.

Love always - Sandy

The Fast...

Sorry I was M.I.A. for a bit.

Wednesday i went to the lake... didn't eat anymore then 800 cals.
Yesterday (Thursday) it was first day of summer school, My prep day for my fast.
i ate nothing. After school, i had to work, i had a piece of pizza :( i caved.
Then i had diet coke (0 cals). then when i got home.
My mom made me eat.. so i Binged and Purged.
It was a bad day.

Today i start my full on fast.
so far i have had water, flavored (o cal) water, and ice.
im going to keep that up.
tonight i work till 9, so i shouldn't be made to eat.
fast completion. I hope this works.

To all those that read my blog, thank you.

<3 Sandy...
---wont settle till I'm the size i have always wanted to be.